||[May. 17th, 2009|01:32 am]
i have a sister. her name is erin. she's 27 years old. she's autistic, and has cerebal palsy and epilepsy. she's also one of the funniest people i've ever met. she did comedy at a coffee house a month or so ago.|
part of being autistic means that you get very caught up in routine, and you have something that you focus in on. erin is obsessed with trains, the time, and a few questions that she asks everyone. she asks these questions all throughout the day. "what time is it?" "do you have a dog?" "a cat?" "sisters?" "brothers?"
it's never ending. we're related and have known each other my whole life (22 years), lived together for 13, and she still asks me these basic questions multiple times, every. single. time. we see each other.
she talks about the time constantly. literally, about every minute or two.
the point is, she repeats herself. it's what she does.
yeah, it can be annoying. and it's OK to feel that way, especially after 22 years of answering the same questions. my dad and i joke about it a lot. if i ask him the time, he says, "what, are you erin?" sometimes (most of the time) we answer her questions jokingly. "what time is it?" "12:34" "i can't believe it" "i know! it seems like only a minute ago it was 12:33!"
we love her and we love spending time with her, but that does not mean we can't enjoy her with a sense of humor.
today i made a joke about how my sister repeats herself in front of some friends who don't know her, just know of her, and it made me feel about 2 inches tall. did i say anything bad? no. i said she repeats herself. but the room was silent and i felt like an idiot.
maybe it's my fault for joking about my beautiful, hilarious, unique sister with people who aren't fortunate enough to know her, but it kind of hurt my feelings that people actually thought i would think ill of my sister. she is one half of my family. she means everything to me. when my dad dies, she's all i'll have left. i can't imagine my life without her.
but what does family do? they joke. i think of her as any other sister and that's OK. she is who she is.
i don't know what else to say. it just hurt my feelings a lot.
oh well. i'm good at alienating people and making them think i'm an asshole.